Sunday, June 13, 2010
We Lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (warning this is a downer)
Today has been an incredibly hard day. One that I knew was coming but it is only the prelude to an even harder day to come. Like most couples we have found ourselves in the position that we can't afford our home. My husband was fired from his job of 10 years leaving us in a position of having to give up. My mom needed us to move in with her and her house was plenty big. The move in with her has been just fine, no problem at all. It has actually been a blessing and I am glad to be home.
But today we got a call from our realtor who is handling the short sale of our home and we had an offer from an investor who wants to buy it for $90,000.00. Which is $37,000 less then what we bought it for.
Here is the deal, I should be rejoicing and I am grateful but this was my home, the house I decorated, lived in and loved. It was the house we brought our first puppy to and raised her. If you know me, I am not a quitter and to me I felt like we just gave up. Then to compound the hurt our first puppy died just before we made the move to my moms, so my heart realizes once we let go of the house it is my final goodbye to Belle and I am just not ready for that.
So many emotions, so much hurt, so much uncertainty and all I can do is trust in God because others have just really let me down.
Today as I was driving home from signing the necessary paperwork, a song from Sanctus Real came on the radio and through the tears I realized alot of things.
My heart is going to hurt for awhile, we still have to get things out of the house and we still have some unfinished business then I will say goodbye to the house on Patrice and to Belle one last time. Then I will head to Penny way where my home is now with my 4 cats and 2 remaining dogs and be at peace, because as it says in Psalm 46:10 - Be still and know that I am God. I will trust in Him knowing that He will never let me down.